Asking ..Why....

So…. Here I am still not able to fully function in life. I can’t go and do the things I used to enjoy without the fear of bursting into uncontrollable tears and embarrassing myself or my family. Not wanting to do anything outside my own four walls. I just want to sleep so I don’t hurt or have to think. In the midst of all this I keep asking why God is not helping me……sadly I come to the conclusion that maybe I am not good enough….

I know this may all sound silly to you, but it is very real to me. Anxiety and depression have taken such a role in my life that I am not the person I used to be. I cannot do the things I once loved any longer. Sure I get up and go to work just like you, I study during the week to make sure I pass my college courses, but at the end of the day I feel am worthless to everyone and so always feel it’s just best to go to bed. I know that this effects my husband and son, as it has made me involved less in activities even around the house. But I again ask why? Why has God not stepped in and helped me?

So let’s throw in on top of this the fact that I suffer from Fibromyalgia. For those of you who do not know what that is, it’s a disease that makes your nerve endings and muscles to constantly over react. When this happens it makes you hurt 24/7 and there is no cure. So couple severe anxiety, depression and horrible pain together…it’s a breeding ground for disaster.

So you are probably thinking that I am writing this looking for sympathy….to be honest I am so lost I don’t know which way is up…but I am sure that I cannot be the only one in the world who is going through this. But each day I continue to ask God….why…..and yet still no answer…..why is that?

Love,

B

Prayer:

Father God,

I come to you seeking relief from these illnesses that are making me to not be able to function. I am asking you to bring me some kind of peace to at some point rise up again. I know you do all things for good…but please place in my heart to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel somehow. I ask so little from you and hope for so much. For it is in Jesus name I pray.

Amen.

I struggle...a personal story

 I am a Wife, Mom, Mentor, Business Woman, College student, a child of God....yet I suffer from anxiety and depression. It's not something that I asked for, it came with the territory of suffering with Fibromyalgia. I don't think anyone just goes to the store and asks for a dose of anxiety along with a side of depression. It happens and it is very hard to cope with. It affects not only me, but my whole life.

I can remember when I was much happier and could participate in life. Now it is a constant struggle every moment of the day. I have days when I just want to lay there and see or talk to no one. It would be fine by me to come home and go straight to bed from work. I have done so, because my anxiety and depression have consumed me so much that I struggle each moment of the day. 

I find myself in a place of exhaustion, sadness, almost to the point of panic. There are times that I just cry for no reason and its frustrating. I know if it is frustrating to me it definitely is for the rest of my family. Especially since I don't know how they can help me. I find them in a state of confusion, because I choose to be alone, even though they have done nothing wrong. 

I can remember when I used to love to go shopping all day. Didn't have to buy a thing, just be out doing something. Now...I don't want to leave the house...don't want any interaction with people. That is so not me...but apparently it has become me. 

My husband will tell you that I have always been an introvert, which is true, but not like I am now. I am sometimes so grumpy I can't stand myself and find it best to just go to bed and sleep. Sleep....that is all I want to do...it helps with my pain, lowers anxiety, and don't feel the depression. But what kind of life is that? It's not a life...

Yes I take medications to help me, but it is not a cure all. I have often even asked God why am I going through this? I have missed church because I can't do what they call "people today." But I can always God....

John 12:46 states, "I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness."  This is a verse that I recall each day in hopes of some kind of positive step forward. It is a reminder that I'm not alone in this battle. 

Each day I have to force myself to do the normal daily routine....I just don't want to, but something in me says put on that fake smile, the "I'm Fine...and move forward. I feel guilty in having these issues, but they are real and I continue to fight these demons 24/7. So I look for scripture that uplifts me for even a moment. 

Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."

I realize that I am not the only woman who suffers this kind of debilitating illness, that makes you not the person you used to be. 

But in writing this post I hope that people can pray for not only me, but others as well. 

In time God, will somehow help me rise up again and when he does it will be a beautiful day. 

Love, 

B

Coffee and Jesus-Finding Time to Meet with God

The grey branches of a once luxuriant tree outside the front door looked like small hands reaching into the milky dawn, and I could find motivation to do what I knew I ought to do. 

Winter wears on me.

The darkness, the long hours inside the house, the lack of outdoor time-it all leaves me just a little bit gaunt in every place except my waistline.

Watching the limbs of the tree out front blow in the winter wind, I walked into the kitchen to brew coffee and told myself that it would be worth it. 

Getting up thirty minutes before everyone, leaving the laptop closed, and committing to seek the face of my Heavenly Father would be worth every ounce of effort. 

It didn't feel like it in the sleepy hour of daybreak, but experience told me it was true. 

Most of us struggle to find time to meet with God. We talk about our busy schedules, our exhaustion, how prayer always turns to sleep, and how it's just not practical in this season of life.

I've made each of these rationalizations more than once. What I really mean when I say these things is this: Finding time to meet with God will cost me something, and I don't want to pay the price.

When I say I don't have time to get alone with God, what I'm really saying is that it will cost me sleep to set aside time with God, and I'm not willing to pay that price. I'm saying I won't pay the price of less screen time, schedule-setting, or trying and failing and trying again.

If we want time with the Lord to be a priority in our lives, there will be a cost. The cost will probably include cutting out a comfort or eliminating a hindrance. There was never a guarantee it would be easy, but when we are compelled by love, the cost becomes well work the effort.

Often, the love that will compel us becomes most real to us after, not before, we pay a price and step out in faith with the assurance that God really will draw near to us when we draw near to Him.

For anyone willing to embrace the cost, here are a few tips for finding time to meet with God....

1. Get up earlier.
In the most demanding season of our lives, set an alarm to get up early so that you can meet with God every morning.

Will you be tired by lunchtime? Absolutely.

Was the sacrifice worth every weary moment? Absolutely.

For many of us, early morning is the optimal time to find time alone with God. 

There is a cost, and it is entirely worth the price if we will simply trust God to hold good on his promise.

2. Limit technology and entertainment.
At the end of the day, digging into God's Word sometimes feels like work.

I've been working all day, and I want nothing more than to veg out in front of the TV and watch a thoughtless sitcom.

While there's nothing wrong with a little bit of thoughtless vegging, if this activity is occupying hours of the day, it's worth swapping out some tech time for some time alone with God.

3. Start and end with Him.
The Lord wants to walk with us throughout every part of our days.

The more we intentionally set aside time to focus our thoughts on him, the more our mind will return to him in stressful, difficult, and even peaceful moments throughout our days.

The disciplines of starting and ending the day with the Lord are like bookends to our lives, and this practice holds the power to transform our entire lives.

4. Schedule it.
If time with the Lord isn't a part of my daily schedule, it simply won't happen.

I'll put it off for later. I'll save it for when I have a "down minute," but these minutes are few and far between.

I have to schedule my time with the Lord at the beginning and end of the day.

When it's part of the daily rhythm of my life, I don't have to wrestle to make room. It's a simple part of what I do, and it feeds my soul like the meals I eat three times a day.

5. Take the first step.
If you've struggled to find a consistent time to meet with the Lord, begin by coming up with a reasonable plan and taking the first step.

Every habit begins with one simple step in the right direction. The more you meet with the Lord, the more your soul will crave the nourishment of time set apart in his love. 

Realize that you can decide to begin each day with two essentials that absolutely has to go together: coffee and Jesus. 

Let's Pray:

Father God, 

We come to you to realize that we are to spend time with you alone. We are to set a daily devotional and prayer time with you. Help us to learn to make time for you. Help us to realize that we can talk to you like you are our best friend. That you will never laugh at us nor discourage us but only encourage, inspire, guide, comfort, convict, and help. 

Jesus name we pray.

Amen

With Love, 

B


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Asking God Why...

"Where were you when I laid the foundations of the earth?" - Job 38:4

When tragedy strikes, questions follow. Our loss of a loved one may lead us to ask God any number of pointed questions: "Why did You let this happen?" "Whose fault was this?" "Don't you care about my pain?" Believe me, as the grieving daughter of a Mother who suddenly passed from an illness I have asked these very questions. 

The book of Job records the questions Job asks as he sits down with friends to lament his suffering. He had lost his family as well as his health and possessions. At one point, he asks, "Why is light given to him who is in misery, and life to the bitter of soul?" (3:20.) Later, he asks, "What strength do I have, that I should hope?" (6:11). and, "Does it seem good to You that You should oppress?" (10:3). Many have stood near a headstone placed too early and asked similar questions. 

But when you all the way to the end of the book, you get a surprise. When God responds to Job (chs. 38-41), He does it in an unexpected way. He turns the tables and asks Job questions-different questions that show His wisdom and sovereignty. Questions about His magnificent creation-the earth, stars, and sea. And the questions all point to this: God is sovereign. God is all-powerful. God is love. And God knows what He is doing. 

We comprehend him not, 

Yet earth and heaven tell, 

God sits as sovereign on the throne,

And ruleth all things well.  - Gerhardt

Our greatest comfort in sorrow is to know that God is in control. 

No one ever said it was going to be easy to lose a close loved one. Yes we are going to ask God why and that is ok. We just need to realize God is in control and is with us all the way during this time of mourning. 

Let's Pray, 

Father, We come to you in a time of great sorrow and ask that you remind us that you are right here with us. Here to comfort those of us who have yet to mourn, those of us who don't know how to mourn, and those of us who are still asking why. May your grace remind us that you are in control. 

Amen.

With Love, 

B

Time of Grief

"...To grant [consolation and joy] to those who mourn in Zion--to give them an ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit--that they may be called oaks of righteousness [lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with God], the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified..." - Isaiah 61:3 (AMP)

There are times in our lives when we go through grief- whether through the loss of a loved one or a major trauma, or through disappointments and rejections. Whatever it may be that has brought grief into our lives, we can be assured that God will bring us comfort. He can turn our mourning into praise and give us the garment of praise for our spirit of heaviness. In our time of grief- God is there with us. He feels the sadness we feel and fully understands. He wont leave us to go through it on our own.

Know that if you are going through a time of grief at the moment, you know you can share it with the Lord. He is there for you and He loves you so much.

Your Heavenly Father holds you when you weep in those times of your loss and grief. 

I am asking for prayers for my family during a hard time right now. That we will heal and accept that God's will is being done.

With Love, 

B

Overwhelmed Spirits

....when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. - Psalm 61:2.

Being overwhelmed sometimes is from our own making. There may be things piled on us that are out of our control for some extent but the majority of stressing out and facing burnout is a combination of bad decisions in our time and management of our life. 

All of a sudden everything has snowballed and we are weighted down in so many areas that everything starts to crumble. On top of that there are sometimes fears that come along with it. Life can get very complicated in a very big hurry. 

When working in any type of organization it is easy to get caught up in piling on too much. We have to work at scaling things so that they are manageable. Nobody can do it all--all of the time. As leaders, we to make better choices.

Here are 10 things that you might have heard before to help guard against stress and burnout, but I think once in a while we all need reminded of them.

1. Consistent Bible Reading and Prayer.

The thing that helps me the most when I am feeling overwhelmed is just to get in the Word and go to the Lord in prayer. When it is a daily part of my life, the weight of the many things that press down on me is so much lighter.

Talking to the Lord about our troubles and concerns can give us some much needed peace. 

2. Rest.

One thing we all need is enough rest. We need a good night's sleep, especially when we have a lot on our plate. We can't accomplish anything if we are worn out before we start out day. 

Even Jesus knew the value of rest. 

3. Eat Healthy.

I always feel better when I eat better. It's a simple thing but we have to eat what's good for us. We have to take in the right things spiritually too because that can have an effect on whether our spiritual lives are healthy or not. 

4. Exercise.

Exercise can release stress in a big way even if it is just walking. When we are leaders, how can we help anyone else if we aren't doing those things that enable us to keep on going?

5. Do Something Pleasurable.

There is nothing wrong with doing something fun. We are not to get caught up in the pleasures of the world but we can have fun and relax as a Christian. 

We need to do something that makes us laugh sometimes. We need to do something that interests us and inspires us. It might be a hobby or just something that you have always wanted to try. 

6. Spend Time with Family and Friends.

Our family can help ease our stress. Being around those that love us can be such an enjoyment and blessing to us.

7. Learn to Say "No".

It's a hard thing for some leaders I know, but learning when to say no has got to be something we learn to do. It will save us so much heartache. 

We don't want to be mumbling, "I should have just said no!" when we end up not coping. 

8. Set Boundaries on Your Time:

Guarding our time helps us avoid that overwhelming feeling. Sometimes we just need to pace ourselves. We need to take things one day at a time. 

It never does anyone any good to try to do a week's worth of work in one day. Set clear boundaries on when you will and will not work on projects.

9. Learn to Delegate.

We have to learn to share the load in ministry and everything else we are involved in. The best leaders find capable people to help. They acquire that knack in delegating tasks and responsibilities to others. 

10. Manage Wisely.

I think we need to manage all areas of our lives a little better. Part of that might be simplifying and uncluttering areas of our ministry or perhaps even areas of our personal lives. If might be organizing, learning to budget, or rearranging activities and events.

The more things flow in our lives, the less stress we pile on. 

Having too much on us can really wear us down. That is why as leaders in life we really need the support of others. There is always so much to do. We need help from others who will help with planning and tasks. We need the support of prayer. 

Above that support though, we really need to make better choices in what we do with our time and how we about our planning. Most importantly we need to rely on the Lord for our strength. 

I think of David and how he relates several times in the Psalms about being "overwhelmed". At each instance he knew where to turn to. He turned to God to help him through and be his strength. I know I need to do that more.

From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I. - Psalm 61:2.

I cried unto God with my voice; and he gave ear unto me. In the day of my trouble I sought the Lord: my sore ran in the night, and ceased not: my soul refused to be comforted. I remembered God, and was troubled: I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah. - Psalm 77:1-3.

I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication. I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble. When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then though knewest my path. In the way wherein I walked have they privily laid a snare for me.- Psalm 142:1-3.

If you haven't read through all of Psalm 142 lately, I encourage you to do so. It can be a real blessing when you are stressed and to the point of breaking.

So, do you have an overwhelmed spirit? 

Let's pray.

Father God, 

We come to you today to thank you for the many blessings that you have given us. Thank you for providing us guidance and reminders to use your words when we feel overwhelmed and can't handle anything else. Thank you for lifting us up when we most need it and providing us with people in our lives who are willing to do the same. In Jesus name.

Amen.

With Love, 

"B"

Soul Sisters..We Need Them.

And it came to pass, when he had made an end of speaking unto Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul. - 1 Samuel 18:1

I've always loved the story of Jonathan and David's friendship and recently when I read in 1 Samuel, that part about their "souls" struck me. It says "the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David". You know, I hear so much about "soul sisters", "soul mates"' and what we consider those "deep friendships". I began thinking about my relationships and friendships with other Christian sisters in the Lord.

I think the friendships between Christian sisters can be so much more than what the world can offer. Talk about Soul Sisters! Our hearts and souls belong to the Lord so we can have wonderful, encouraging, deep and meaningful relationships like the friendship of Jonathan and David.

Those Christian women in my life and who I've known over the years are some of the people who've encouraged me and motivated me the most. 

S...Silly.

When thinking about my sisters in the Lord, what sticks out the most to me? Well, I have some sisters that are just silly. Not a serious point to start with but I think it's so important that our friends bring some laughter and a little humor to our lives. I know some sisters that just make me laugh and sometimes I just need that laughter so much.

A merry heart doeth good like a medicine: but a broken spirit drieth the bones. - Proverbs 17:22.

I think part of it has to do with the joy in their hearts. The Lord gives us that joy and sometimes I think it bubbles out of some people more than others. I love being around people like that, don't you? Especially my sisters in the Lord. I also love the fact that they allow me to be a little silly myself sometimes.

I...Inspiring.

I love those sisters in Christ that inspire. They make me want to do more, do better and sometimes just get involved in something. Sometimes it's not by what they say but what they do.

It might not even be an inspiration to do something spiritual. It just might be by how they are organized or even how they keep their house. 

I need all that inspiration for my spiritual life that my sisters give to me as well. I need to be encouraged to love Christ more, read the Bible more, pray more, and all those things from my sisters that inspire me to be a better Christian.

S...Strong.

I've had many sisters in Christ that seem to have such a strength. So many Christian women I've known and met over the years have had some real struggles and heartache in their lives. I always think that mine seem so small and trivial when I see what some women go through. 

I appreciate all that strength they have found in the Lord to just keep going on and on and I love it when they share some of that strength with me. 

T...Talkative.

I couldn't pass up how much we women like to talk. It's not a bad thing. It's one of those good things. When we don't talk and share, there's something missing from our lives. Talking about things out-loud with our sisters helps us to cope.

Communication is so important. How can we fellowship without talking and sharing? When we share our joys and struggles with each other, it builds us up. And what comes along with that is my sisters listen to me as well.

E...Encouraging.

Praise the Lord! I love it when my sisters in the Lord encourage me. I, like everyone else, have days that I'm down and there's nothing better than when a friend and sister in Christ comes along and cheers me up, perhaps gives me a pep talk, and brings me that encouragement that I am so in need of. 

Using people in our lives to encourage us is one of the wonderful ways in which God works. 

R...Real.

One of things I love about my sisters in the Lord is that they are real. I need some real friends to keep me grounded. Have you ever been around superficial people? It makes me so uncomfortable to be around people like that. 

I need my friends to be real and genuine and that's what other sisters in Christ are to me.

S...Saved.

One thing that all of my sisters in the Lord have in common is that they know the Lord. They've been saved by the power of Christ's blood.

Isn't it great that our sisters in Christ are all in one family? We all have our Heavenly Father in common and that makes our sister relationship special.

I trust I'll be that soul sister that my sisters in Christ need around them. I really don't know what I'd do without my sisters in the Lord. I don't really think it's all about being good "soul sisters" as much as it is about being good for each other's souls. 

My sisters in the Lord encourage me and keep me grounded by their faith, friendships, and love.

So, sister, have you been good for another sister's soul lately?

Let's pray:

Heavenly Father, 

We come to you today to remember that you gave us one another to lean on in times of need, in times of fellowship, and in all times of life. You have made us into one family bonded by the blood of Christ. Let us each reach out to a fellow sister that we have not talked to in awhile and see how we can help their soul. For it is in your name we pray.

Amen.

With Love, 

"B"

God is Bigger and Stronger

We've all had days (and maybe even years) when life just doesn't seem to be going our way!

I've had long seasons of life where I felt like nothing was working and everything was out of whack, and I've had frustrating days where I just can't seem to get anything accomplished. We all go through these times, but if we recognize that God's power during these troubled times, we learn to that He is much bigger than what is going on!

In the grand scheme of things, a stressful morning doesn't impact life or eternity all that much, but in those longer seasons of joblessness, sickness, financial stress, marriage strain and other ongoing life events, the stress and frustration can seem overwhelming. Below are four things I've learned to remember in those challenging seasons of life that have helped me and I pray that they will help you as well!

1. Your character should always be stronger that your circumstances. 

We can't always control what happens to us, but we can always control how we choose to respond. In those moments when I choose to stop complaining and instead give thanks to God for the good in my life, the parts that seem bad start to seem much less significant. Choose to keep  a positive attitude and thankful heart regardless of what you're going through. 

"Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." -1 Thessalonians 5:16-18. 

2. Your struggles always lead to strength. 

Every difficulty in your life, whether big or small, is something God will use to produce more strength, faith and perseverance in you if you let Him! All your pain has a purpose. 

" And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." - Romans 8:28.

3. God's timing is always perfect.

God's plans are almost always different from our plans, but His plans are always perfect! Have the patience to wait on His timing instead of forcing your own. 

" For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord; plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11.

4. God will never leave your side.

You may feel like you're going through this struggle all alone, but from the moment you ask Jesus to bring you into God's family, He will be by your side to the end so never lose hope!

" Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you." - Deuteronomy 31:6.

Let's Pray:

Father God, 

We come to you in prayer of thankfulness for all that you do. We ask that you help us to remember that you are bigger and stronger than anything we will ever face. That you are facing it with us and not having us face it alone. Teach us to stop and lean on you in all situations not just in troubled times. In Jesus name we pray.

Amen.

With Love, 

"B"

Being Thankful to the Unthankful

" But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil" 

-Luke 6:35

During our tenure here on earth, we will meet our share of unthankful individuals. These people are presented in our lives by God to test our faith and our patience. However, we have a tendency to look at the naturally, instead of spiritually. But once we see what God is trying to do, we will be able to understand the bigger picture of His divine plan. This will force those who believe in God to be kind to those who really don't deserve it. 

Personally, I find it very difficult to deal with a person who is not appreciative of the things that others do for them. Even the things that we try to do for them aren't good enough. Dealing with this could make anyone act in an ungodly fashion. But, would God be please with us if we did that? No he would not. 

It's even harder to be kind to those unthankful individuals who are supposed to be Christians. When you think of Christ, you think of love, kindness, humility, and more. So when you meet people that claim to know and follow His word, it's disheartening to witness their ungratefulness. This is especially true being that the bible says, " In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you" (1 Thessalonians 5:18). 

But today I challenge you to be like Jesus. When you come across unthankful individuals, I urge you to be patient and long suffering. Even though it may be frustrating to deal with, I encourage you to remember how we used to be before we accepted Christ. Jesus would wake us up and we wouldn't say "thank you". Jesus would protect us and we wouldn't say "I appreciate you God". Jesus died for us and we wouldn't even give our lives back to him. But today, I challenge you to change your way of handling unthankful individuals and to bless those who curse you!

Let's pray:

Heavenly Father, 

At times we forget that we should all love one another and be thankful to you in all that we do. I ask you to remind us daily that we should be thankful for everything. Even in the times that we are struggling we should thank you, for we know all that you have your hand in is for the good. Father God, bless those who struggle with this on a daily basis and touch their hearts, so that they may be more like you. In Jesus' name I pray.

Amen.

With Love, 

"B"

When Faith is Being Tested

So I am going through some really tough challenges right now health wise. I battle everyday with myself and with God as to why this is happening to me. Then I am reminded that I need to have faith. He keeps telling me have faith. 

He replied, "Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there; and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." - Matthew 17:20.

As I think about the current situation in my life, I am reminded of the test that God placed upon Abraham. Abraham journeyed to the mountain top to follow God's will to sacrifice his beloved son; Isaac. Abraham's faith in God did not diminish. Abraham's faith in God was so strong that he knew God was going to make a way for him. It's a reminder that Jesus wants me to have faith, and He only asks that I have faith the size of a mustard seed. 

Nobody said "oh Brandy dear" your life and journey will be easy. Tests and trails will come my way but I must maintain good courage and cheer. How I handle this test is how I will be graded by God. I made the decision to follow Gods will whole heartedly; but I also know in order to pass this test I must have faith that it will get better because (God is ABLE). This test is a test unlike no other; I wasn't prepared for this test. So I decided to keep pushing and praising God no matter the outcome. I don't know who needs this message today but I am here to assure you that your tests will turn into testimonies. As I am sure that mine will in time. Next time you feel the urge to want to give up, think of Abraham. As a strong believer of Christ, I know my purpose is to testify of God's favor upon my life. 

I am currently facing a road block in this present hour, but guess what...I declare that this is my season to receive everything God says I will inherit. Everything the devil tried to stop will not prevail. I may not bare tangible sacrificial items, but trust and behold God hears my cries for help. In order to pass this test, I will continue to keep my heart and eyes laid upon Him. God will not forsake me. He is always there with open arms. 

He knows my needs and the desires of my heart. His word says:

"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trails, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing." -James 1:2-4.

In the words of a believer, "God is able to do exceedingly and abundantly above all that we ask. If He did it before, He can do it again." (My Loving Spouse, Bo Ross). Whatever it takes just bask in His presence, because weeping endures for the night, but joy comes in the morning. Whether it takes me a few months  or several years to pass this test, I will hold on to God's words because they are true. I am encouraged just by knowing my purpose and being is all for His Glory. Righteousness is what I long for. I ask that you please keep me in lifted in prayer.

Lets Pray:

Father, 

I come to you today and ask for healing. I ask that you keep me close to you and help me remember that you are not letting me walk alone. I thank you for my husband who without his strong faith, prayer,  and patience, I could not get through this each day. I pray for those who are suffering, or are having struggles that they feel they cannot over come. I ask that you reach out to them, as well, and let them know they are not going through it alone and that you are faithfully right there with them. You are a loving, faithful, healing God and I whole heartedly thank you for that. 

In Jesus' name, Amen. 

Lauren Daigle - Trust in you

With Love,
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